“In order to make the kind of changes I sought, I had to become open, nonjudgmental, and present to myself. And not just once a week or twice a month, but every day.”
Creation. Sex. Freedom. Power. Breaking Through Conventions.
My approach to aliveness.
Our work is to live all out. To make the most of life for ourselves and everyone around us.
We do this by shedding the scripts we have been taught and by connecting to our bodies, hearts and the world around us.
The search for a life of aliveness is not an easy path - it takes dedicated inner work and the support of others on the same journey.
And once the momentum builds it is the easiest thing in the world.
Ultimately we emerge new people living lives overflowing with both juice and impact.
In personal growth we tend to patch together a personal program of study and transformation comprised of pieces of the puzzle that we come across, bringing them together into an often haphazard whole. This can result in lists of things “to do” that are too long to ever be accomplished, jumping from modality to modality, bypassing, and an ungrounded understanding of self and life.
I have developed a structured inner work process that spirals through body, mind, emotions, spirit and sexuality to identify the precise area to focus on right now for the most energy gain and growth. A structured, intentional, integrated process results in clear focus on what is important, steady progress and increased wisdom and aliveness based on strong foundations.
BODY
Your body has been with you through every experience you have had. We are taught that the body serves our dreams. But the body is so much more than that - it contains the information that calls us forward into more. Body practices help you feel and respond to that information and use pain, pleasure, fatigue, needs and satisfaction as treasured signals for transformation.
MIND
We tend to think we are the same as our thoughts. Our culture emphasizes the mind. Developing a relationship with your thinking allows you to enjoy the aliveness of your mind and also put it in nourishing balance with your body, heart, and spirit.
HEART
When a person speaks from the heart we can feel it. Yet so many of us protect our hearts out of fear. Opening the heart and letting it guide you will change your life. Getting comfortable with all of your emotions and being supported in your authenticity and vulnerability allows you to access your truth and open your heart to the world.
SPIRIT
As we sense our body, relax the dominance of our mind, and open our heart, we have glimpses of something more. Of our interconnectedness and our impact. As we emerge from this process new we have a whole new experience of purpose.
SEXUALITY
Our power to create, our enjoyment of life, the connection to the mystery between ‘here’ and ‘not here’. Sexuality is repressed, distorted and shamed and yet….as we connect to our authentic desire - who we really are as powerful creative beings - we become magnetic. We love life and we draw beautiful experiences towards us.
Through this approach I help you break through conditioning and experience yourself deeply and with compassion.
Through private coaching and group experiences I curate for and with each client the unique combination of experiences that will help them heal deep wounds and sustain a sense of aliveness.
In service of that I explore widely in different healing practices and ways of thinking. I also spend hours every week healing and more deeply inhabiting my own body, mind, heart, and spirit and have done so for more than 20 years.
Over and over again I face my fears and transform and I hold space for you to do the same.
The destination of this work is aliveness.
Everyone comes to this work through a gateway.
I am currently focusing on four different gateways into the work. The work is fundamentally the same, whatever your gateway.
The desire for ‘more’. The intuition that there is indeed more for us. I trust the desire for more always - it brings us to the heart of God.
Sexuality. It is our desire to create. Love and sexuality call us into creating more alive versions of ourselves.
Anxiety. I see the epidemic of anxiety as hopeful - we are not at peace and there is a reason for that. Our anxiety contains the information we need to become fully alive.
Grief. The most shattering and common human experience. As we come apart we experience more and gain the power to create and fully live.
Whatever your gateway, together we connect with the aliveness that is you.
Thank you to Grief, Sex, Anxiety, Longing, Grandmother Ayahuasca, the Mushroom Teachers and the Toad Teachers for giving me the chance to live in this lifetime and for guiding my steps every day.
From Goldman Sachs to Psychotherapist to Guide
Someone called me a late bloomer recently and I said, “I intend to bloom until I die.”
Having already traveled through early trauma, a wild ride on wall street, destabilizing grief and a sexual awakening I am committed to playing the cards that life have been dealt me full out. I am devoted to learning and most importantly loving more and more and more. I am living at the edges of what a former version of myself would have thought possible.
I am here to support you in doing the same.
My Influences
PSYCHOTHERAPY
Former Registered Psychotherapist (No longer licensed), Diploma from the Centre for Training in Psychotherapy, Toronto.
PROPRIOCEPTIVE WRITING
Ann Mullen, Linda Trichter-Metcalf
BODY-SOUL, JUNGIAN ANALYSIS, and DREAMWORK
Marion Woodman, Judith Harris
CONTINUUM
Kim Brodey, Robin Becker
YOGA TEACHER TRAINING
Michael Stone, Lida Jind
RADICAL ALIVENESS
Ann Bradney, Jonathan Godfrey
COACHING
Adler Trained Coach
CORE ENERGETICS
JoAnn Lovascio, Anna Timmermans, Klaus Stinshoff
CORE SHAMANISM
Sandra Ingerman, Daniel Leonard
PLANT MEDICINE
Nihue Rao, Iquitos, Peru
KAMBO CEREMONY
REIKI
Level I with Daniel Leonard
BELVASPATA
Grand Master
CHRISTIAN WISDOM TRADITION
Heather Vesey, James Finley
ASTROLOGY
Julie Simmons, Sarah Walton
ZEN BUDDHISM
Nenates Pineda
RADICAL ETHICS
Donna Orange
EMOTIONALLY FOCUSED THERAPY
Sue Johnson
CREATING AND LEADING TRANSFORMATIONAL WORKSHOPS
Ken Nelson, Lesli Lang, David Ronka, Jimmie White
TRAUMA THERAPY
Janina Fischer
FINANCE
CFA Charterholder, M.S. Computational Finance, Carnegie Mellon University
Many of my experiences and trainings do not fit into conventional modalities and some of my mentors do not wish to be named. Others I have chosen to remove because the lineage is not in integrity and I cannot recommend it. This list is designed to give you a flavour for my life experiences. That being said, modalities are not legitimizers and I do not wish to give the impression that they are.
WORDS THAT EXCITE ME