Everything's gonna be OK

On their last Wisdom Circle call, each Expand member has the opportunity to share about their journey. These stories are inspirational for everyone in the group. R. graduated from Expand last fall - here is her story:

"It's really bittersweet to end. I know we all need to move on and do different things. But if I could keep doing this every month, I would.

My intention was to experience shifts in the area of self worth, feeling good enough, feeling worthy, and having this sense of peace that I've been longing for many, many, many years. And with that, removing the shame that I grew up experiencing and feeling for most of my life.

In the area of self worth and feeling good enough, I feel like I've accomplished that. Like you said, Alison, the journey is like a windy road. I picture this windy path, and you're gonna get off course sometimes, and then you're gonna get back on. I'm able to acknowledge when I do have those bumps in the road, or find myself reverting back to certain old patterns and programs that I'm trying to release. The self awareness for me is really key.

The climax of this journey was over the summer.... Taking my daughter away for the weekend super last minute, and just being so in the moment and present. Spending time with my kids at different points and doing things that I wouldn't normally… in the past I would put up all the roadblocks of why I can't do something.

I've talked about unpacking some of those emotional needs that, like Alison said even last week, my emotional needs as a child weren't met. And that's been hard for me… so then I put up all these armours and roadblocks to try to protect myself and control things. And that's what I'm trying to shed. And I do feel like I've made really good progress in that area.

I often bark orders at my family to do certain things. And I still find myself doing that, I'm not gonna lie, but just in the last 24 hours, my daughter offered to drive my younger daughter to ballet. And then today she was supposed to do her laundry and I was going to go up to her room and bug her one more time. And all of a sudden I hear her, she's doing the laundry! So I think if I release control and let things go then the things I ultimately want to happen just naturally unfold.

That's about me rewiring those neural pathways in the brain. And so when I do my dosing, that's what I picture in my head, the mushrooms reworking the pathways from a visual standpoint.

I'm also working on releasing the anger. I know there's still anger pent up. I've watched the videos that you've put together, Alison, and a couple of times I've had a little bit of an emotional release, but not a full one. So I believe I'm still on this journey.

I really enjoyed the fire ceremony I did that one night. Just burning and watching those pieces of paper with my fears, just turned into ash. I thought was really powerful.

I feel much more open to the possibilities. My past doesn't define me. I'm working on releasing guilt.

I feel better about my self worth, and just having that confidence to know everything's gonna be okay.

Also, I don't think this is completely coincidental, but in the course of the last three months, I've picked up three new one on one clients. And I've done less sharing on social media."

I am so proud of R. She was open to knew ways of thinking and feeling. She was consistent in her self-exploration. She committed to herself through daily practice and welcoming the support Expand offered combined with the medicine. All of this led to foundational shifts in herself over a short period of time.

We meet the medicine and the medicine meets us.

We meet life and life meets us.

This is what we are here to do in Expand. I invite you to join us. Expand is a three month alchemical program to transform your current experience into a new chapter in your life.

In Expand you will engage in deep mental, emotional and somatic work in a structured process so that you can fully step into your life in every way you desire. You will also have the opportunity to experience one full microdosing cycle combined with the inner work if you choose. Medicine work is optional and enrolment is always open.

Expand includes three weekly calls (two recorded so you have the option to attend when it is best for your rhythm and schedule, one live), ongoing community and a structured curriculum delivered via an app that walks you through your inner journey. Read more and apply here. The application is to ensure Expand is a right fit for you right now - upon receiving your application I contact you to set up a call to answer your questions.